A year ago, I developed an unhealthy and obsessive attraction to a man half my age at work (I've been married for 25 years). After suffering silently with my feelings for a couple of months, I finally approached him to see if he felt at all the same. We ended up having a couple of secretive "encounters" that just whetted my appetite for more and I felt more alive than I had in years, rediscovering passion I thought was long gone. But he decided it was "better for both of us" if we just returned to being friends. My heart shattered, and my chronic depression put me on the road to a complete physical and mental breakdown. I'm still struggling to get him out of my head, though he is out of my life at this point. What happened to me? Why is it so hard for me to stop fantasizing about him? Why do I feel as though when he walked away from me as a lover that he took my sexuality with him? I seem to be still grieving over the loss, as unhealthy and unrealistic as it was. I feel despondent about my marriage as a result, unmotivated to revive my old, familiar relationship when it can't compare to the excitement of the other...I just don't know how to get unstuck.