hey. ok so im 14 and for a long long time ive been looking for freinds. i was never really the super cool kid in elementary school ( i was sort of a well liked nerd). once jr high started all that wasnt cool anymore so i pretended to discontinue reading writing and being a "nerd" while really ive never stopped. i though that since i would just pretend to not be a nerd anymore i could easily just make freinds with the popular kids and it would be as easy as that. well what i realized was that i had no idea how undersocially developed i was. after two years i know exactly how to act to be "cool" i have lots of freinds but im not quite in all of tbe social circles enough for people to call me to hang out or really be considered one of the cool kids. i have a few good freinds i can hang out with anytime, but mostly i have to start my own social gatherings to be included in any at all. or i have to carefully word and slip into other peoples plans, but that is few and far between. im tired of spending so much time trying to hang out with my freinds!!! its insane how hard i work to be accepted by them and i realize its all fruitless and wont help me in life but humans need to feel accepted and really theyr my only option right now. i hate being lonely and countig the days before i can hangout again. what should i do to solve my lonliness, and get accepted or come to peace with not being cool? im 14 going into 9th grade. thank you so much i need help.