Hello. My name is irrelevant.
I am 16 years old. Lately I've been wanting to sleep more nd more. Nd when I do sleep I have like bad dreams.I always wake up thinking I'm awake but I'm not, then my heart starts to race and I can't move. Then I have a panic attack nd wake up feeling weird. I've been having feeling of hearting people. Recently my mom ex boyfriend trashed our house, and messed up her car, so I had to walk to school missing my ap math. I sent violent messeges to his phone over over and over again. I've had the thought of killing him & who ever is helping him violently. Sometimes I go off into another world and zone out. And not even realize I was doing it until someone points it out. It makes me smile at the thought of someone elses pain and misery. My head hurts not like head ache or migrane like I don't know how to explain it. There's so much more. But I'm honestly waiting for who ever keeps harrasing my house to come back. The things I wouold to that person when I catch them.


Hi denuh,

how long have you been having this panic feeling when you're in bed? Did your mom call the police for the damages her ex BF did? She needs to file a restraining order against him. I realize it's very frustrating and stressful this happened, but you shouldn't try to get revenge on him for doing this.

It sounds like you need someone to talk to. Would you be comfortable speaking with a school counselor? If the panic feelings don't calm down, please consult your doctor. Do some deep breathing exercises before you sleep - this might help and I hope you feel better.

Well denuh, you like so many in this very stuffed up world are not suffering from a mental disorder as such but a socio-economic one. Dysfunctional families and major social/psycho problems have increased exponentially over the years since the Second World War (WW2). Because the very rich deny the problem and the poor rely on drugs alcohol and violence to solve their problems it is you the children of those people who suffer. My advice would be to contact your school counsellor, explain your home problems and ask for help and understanding from the teachers. AND, this is important, promise yourself that you will not end up in the same situation, work hard at school, become what you feel is best: Social worker, nurse, police, teacher, and make a difference in others lives. Things have to change one day and your young enough to be part of that change. GOOD LUCK. Jasmine.