I'm 24 yr old female. 2 years ago i started having crazy thoughts everytime i hear or see horrible events. for exmaple, i hear about a serial kiler, i start obsessing about it and worrying so badly i might become a serial killer, and so on and on. i had many crazy ideas, i would cry, panic, pray, and feel like i'm living in a cloud, but everytime i would over come the idea and it doesn't bother me anymore nor think about it again. the last one i had, was being scared i might get possessed and that was after i saw a horror movie. Now recently, my coleagues at work told me stories about a pedophile that would rape boys and eat them. I panicked that same day. i went home and as usual i started researching the topic and read more horrifying stories (which is a bad idea, since it puts more thoughts in the head) and i had a severe panic attack. I was sick for a week, didn't eat, i was extremely disgusted and couldnt understand y would someone do this. Now everytime i see red meat i remember the stories and i'm extremely scared and terrified that i might become one of those insane people, lose it and end up hurting someone. my relationship with my husband is not too good since the whole thing started and i'm scared to be around him, because i'm scared that i might hurt him in my sleep or something. i realise my thoughts are in my head and they were triggered by what i read and heard, i'm just scared that i might actually start accepting this idea and turn insane. i'm taking celexa 20 mg. people dont see anything wrong with me and work wise and i'm doing really good, it's just when it comes for eating and when i'm alone thats when these thoughts kick in. i'm very scared i dont want to hurt anyone, i cant even watch violent movies. Can someone hurt other people just like that????? can anyone help me ease the pain and eliminate the insane thoughts????