I have problems ... I get mad easily and irritated very fast . Esp, at home. I sometimes keep it in and sometimes when i'm fed up with it I just start to scream. I feel like nothings right ... Or going to be if I don't include myself and finish w.e it may be alone . Sometimes I get depressed and start to cry .... For no reason at all . I like to be myself . Im more comfortable that way . I dont trust people like I used to ... I feel like Everyones fake now , and if I dont watch my back they'll end up using me . I tend to not like a whole lot of people , and find something about them ( their flaws ) that I don't like . I feel like in this world , I cant trust anybody .... And that eventually everyone will leave me at the end . I tend to not put trust and relationships on top , because they can always be broken . I can picture myself alone in the future without family or friends ... Honestly I find it okay , there's no problem with that . Ive stopped talking to people , I only have a few close and good frienda who I surround myself with . After I graduate though I dont see those same friends being in my life ...... ! I just want to be alone . People die , things change , relationships dont last , and eventually everything ends .... That's somewhat my moto . I only trust my bff , and yet sometimes I dont .... I know one day she'll be gone . whats the point in having friends , having a tight real relationship when it all ends up crashing down and ending . I dont want to fight to keep it alive , the only person who truly understands me , and will always be there for me is myself I dont need anybody else. I dont know why I feel like this .... Maybe its my past . I've been hurt , left , used , and in pain . I dont want the same thing happening ....before I used to think friendship lasts forever ... Relationships are real ... etc . But now I see the world is nothing more than a place filled with meaningless everything . I know I'll never find anyone real ....worth my time ... Kidness... Friendship .... Im not emo or goth . Im nice usually , fun , and I usually have a smile on my face .... But inside I feel confused , sad , etc .. Yet I like to be Alone . ........ Advice please ?