I've just moved back to the city where I was born and raised, and had two of the most wonderful friends a person could ever ask for. My job in the other city was dangerous, and left me often upset. My friends urged me to come back, but I hardly ever saw them. I wrote them a letter which may have sounded suicidal, and my friends say they won't talk to me until I'm healthy. I was a bit mean to them in subsequant emails, but I apologizd several times for this. I was in a bad funk, and felt like they were ganging up on me. They know I'm on meds, and see a shrink, but that is not enough for them. I feel so alone here, and I have no other friends and no job- plus I am very shy. I do have my family, but I want my friends back too. What should I do? Give up, or keep begging? We've been best buds for nearly 20 years, with hardly an issue.